Thursday, March 31, 2011

If only I could

His arms enclose me I watch as the mesh caging rises to entrap me

Out of instinct I shrink away

They pull me in tighter I watch as the bars close securely at the top

My eyes begin to rove frantically

A cry of desperate anguish trapped behind my lips I lay motionless, imitation of death

Convinced to witness the look of sorrow deepen his eyes

The confusion, the pain

Would murder me more than the steel cage that binds me

He already feels the frantic eyes

The tense rigidity of my body

That he holds so closely, protectively to him

Raging storms of muted passions he can barely guess at

My burden alone

He tucks his head in at the nape of my neck

Meant to relax and insure me of his protective presence

this love, his love

I feel the hot breath

It moistens the back of my neck, clings there, a hot immovable dew

His arms feel oppressively heavy

I want to leap from them

Go to the window, the dark, the stars

Give myself to their enclosure alone

The dark deep night I close my eyes

Breathe deeply, then breathe again

Flitting through skies

No metal cages, no oppressive arms

Feel the wind as it braces me and covers me

Cool, and light

Perch upon the tip of a silver branch

Moonlight splashing across the ground

Glittering the world of newly lain dew

No metal cages, no oppressive arms

Freedom

I open my eyes

The walls, the arms, the bed

My cage

His love

My love I bury my face in my arm

And wait for unconsciousness to remove my confines

So that I may fly